...continuation of Oct 2, 2022's post

I've finally let go.

It was a strange proccess. It took me knowing that he's already onto someone else for me to be able to slowly get rid of the feeling. Was it the mutual feelings that I thought we still shared at that time that made me still hanging on to the feeling? Was it the fact that my assumptions, that he's someone who's easy to fall in and out of love, turned out right? Was it the dissapointment that I was still there, wondering and hoping that things could still work out the way we initially wanted it to be, while it was easy for him to let go and moving on? Was it the sad feeling of knowing that what once used to be special, at least for me, no longer meant anything once it's being replaced by another soul?

Anyway, whatever the reason was, I've let go. I've finally come to terms with the fact that in this frame of time, we are not meant to be.

"You have to accept that sometimes beautiful things end, that sometimes people leave, that sometimes two human beings don't beat the odds, and you have to find closure in that. You have to heal." This is written on "A Gentle Reminder" and it hits home for me. 

I have no regret of ever bumping into him in my timeline of life. I'm grateful that he was ever here. I'm grateful that after such a long time, I've finally able to feel those kind of feelings again--even thought it was a short one. I'm glad that we got to share a lot of things. I'm thankful that we met. I still and will always think that he deserves all the great things in life, and will always be hoping for it. I'm glad that it was him.